where to start? its only 3 days to go. finally. i go crazy waiting here and thinking about what could go wrong and bad... now its time to see how it really goes.
thuesday i go to helsinki and will stay there for 2 days. no idea yet where. and then it goes to kukkia for the 10 days arrival & language camp. there i also have to do my stupid presentation about switzerland. it makes me nervous the camp. im afraid i wont make friends and feel alone. but also happy i hopefully will meet julia from austria. with her i write many emails and we understand eachother good. but she said im not on her list of who is in the camp. weird. i dont have a list. but i dont think just because she is evs she has another camp. i will see.
and then it goes to kauhava! if i could i would go straight there without the camp. the family seems so nice and i write emails everyday with päivi the mother. i cant wait to meet them.
but its scary how much i should do now until thuesday. finish the ton of shit for sierre inkl. prepare flat list for my grandmother, finish my presentation about switzerland, buy last presents, buy chocolate, write school thing for sybil and most important i think: finally PACK. this scares me... im sure i will make over 20 kg and forget most of what i want. :P
yes yes yes im so lazy now that i didnt do that all yet. but first i was often away, and now... this is really weird but i love just to sit in my room or somewhere else in the flat and look at everything and think about stuff.
saying bye bye to my loved save home...
its so difficult to describe how i feel now. i really really want it and i finally want go. but sometimes it scares me to death :(